I’ve been having less and less of a necessity to put importance on… “days”. Or like… “my life”. Honestly, it doesn’t really matter. I don’t want to sound nihilist, or depressed, or detached from life- because I feel quite the contrary.
So what I feel angsty one day, or euphoric the next… When it comes to the next day, the previous doesn’t really matter- when it comes to your feelings at least. What am I doing? How am I forming my future? How am I acting, creating, and DOING for now to create my bliss for tomorrow?
The places I’ve come since starting my freshman year of college. I’ve changed, and evolved, and transformed, and expanded, and all that millions of times over.
I FEEL so much lighter than I used to be. So much more lucid. At peace. Holistic. It’s crazy how anxious and stressed I was before. How preoccupied I was with worries that never concerned me. How jittery simple situations made me. How uneasy I was about everything.
And I still continue to grow, and it’s the most exciting part about everything. For a while I had words and metaphors for my experiences, but recently it just transcends all that. Goes beyond what I can say about it. I feel my eyes, therefore my world, opening up. I feel resilience, and confidence, and strength beaming from my gut.
Never before have I felt so sure of myself, and oh the feeling it brings me. I feel strength in feeling no necessity in understanding it fully. To approximate its importance. To put value to what and where it brings me. I am here, in the now, enjoying it for what it brings me… And THIS is the best moment of my life because my life IS.